VENTING

My so called birth mother runs over my cat then laughs about it and says she's glad the bitch is dead. How do you react to something like that? She is the most craziest women I have ever met in my life. I feel grossed out just even saying she's my birth mother. I mean forreal. Like it's just gross! I can't stand her. She is soooo cold hearted and a very cruel person! I don't even want to talk about all this shit going on. But I live with it and this is what I am going through right now so I have to vent. I'm moving out of here and I could care less what happens to her! I realy do not care if she dies right now or later! Not only saying that. A person that claims she is my "mother" and runs over my cat then laughs about it and walks around like nothing happen. I have lost all feeling for this weird women. She is just blah!!!! like ewwww I could care less if she lives or dies! Can you believe it? I really don't give a shit! She is the 2nd person in the my own family that has really made me hate them. And for what? It's what they wanted. it's done! I hate both of them! Well, hate is a strong world and hate means you care somewhat. But I don't even care at all so theres nothing. Only gonna get out of here and when she dies I don't even want a phone call from anyone telling me. Cause I will hang up. I am so different from these weird people and living and being around them makes me like them. I have to get away from these unhappy people before I go crazy. 

RIP CALI

RIP CALI

more appointments

I have another dental appointment tomorrow. I'm getting so tired of all these appointments. I think I have maybe 5 more with the dentist since they are doing one at a time and setting my appointments so far away from each other. Shit maybe more then that. I got all the big things done thank god for that! Now it's just small cavities they need to work on. I hope they just do them all at one time since they are just small ones they can't be seen. Then 2 other appointments I have coming up this month. Put the appointments will never end. I got some other things going on that I am not ready to talk about here just yet. Has something to do with counseling and all that. Done with all my court dates lol This last one was for my dogs registration. I got fined 94 bucks for that shit and all I needed to do from the start is pay 5 bucks for the damn tag! Makes me mad. I need to pay $300 something all together to the courts then I'm done with that. That's getting paid here soon in about 2 weeks. 


Having things owed out feels like I always have something over my head even if it's not affecting me much. I just hate it. So I'm gonna try my best to get things caught up as fast as I can. Also gotta get my damn cats fixed. That's more money but the place I'm taking them to goes by income so it wont be much at all. my female cat is soooooooo close to going into heat it's cutting it close. I wish them people would just call me back so I can get this done. I don't want her having babys jusut so I have to take them to the SPCA to maybe get put down. I hate the thought of that. It's so hard to find animals a home now. No one wants any. I just hope they call me soon. I'm having to chase my damn cat almost everyday. She jets right out the door every time someone opens it. I guess that's it for the venting. :/ 

UPDATE

Just got back from the dentist. I had my root canal done. It didn't hurt at all! I'm glad I'm getting my teeth fixed. I have been waiting so long to get this done. And I'm just glad I get a chance to be one of the people in my family that don't have to surfer from all the teeth pain. My head acts has gone away and my mouth feels new again! I still have some more that dose need to be done though. But all the big things are out of the way. I have to go back once more for them to finish the root canal. They put some white filling in it. Looks like white out on half my tooth lol But when I go back they are going to make it look real lol It's like a blessing to have all this done for free. Without these very nice people I would have never had all this done. This is thousands of dollars worth done on my teeth. When I do have the money I will make a donation to them and do the best I can. They would never know how thankful I am for this! It is a blessing and I am not just saying that. True blessing!!!! 

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My blood work came back negative so that's a real good thing. I got another appointment here soon and they are gonna do more test on me. I'm feeling a little better so far. Getting my teeth worked on and got more appointments coming up for that. I got a lot of appointments this month! I hope I can remember them all. I think Miguel is being deported anyway. Although nothing held up in court it did not matter. I don't know what to talk about in here really. I think I'm just gonna update from time to time just so I can remember what's going on lol 



Someone from Spp made this tag for me :) I think it's cute

                             

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Sis and Antonio