Just blabbing

I was looking through some photos of German Shepard and doberman mix and also German shep/Beagle mix and I think my dog might be German Shep/ Beagle mix? It's so hard to tell though. She is not aggressive in anyway so maybe that's the beagle in her? Shit if I know...

I'm just sitting here bored and nothing to do and don't really want to do anything. I have had people to call and want to go do something but I don't feel like it. I keep dreaming about my boyfriend lol and I wake up a little depressed then I'm ok again. I feel so bad that he has to stay in jail for this long. Even if it's the right thing. Well, I guess it's not a life time so he will be out again and I guess he will move on. I don't know what will happen. I hope he stops drinking and dose something right with him self. Funny thing is if I knew he stopped drinking forever I would take him back. But I know that wont happen. At least not this soon. Shit.. when he gets out of jail I know that's the first thing he is going to want.

My sister is going through almost the same thing as I am only her x is not a drunk but he dose drink. I think she might be taking it harder then me or she could be over it. So far it seems bout the same with us right now. I don't think all of this has really sank in yet. I'm so use to things like this happening it's almost like I just block it out and go on. I have not yet had a real good relationship. I don't even know how to keep one if I did have something good. I'm just who I am and that's it. I don't even want one now anyways and maybe never again. Who knows?

Danm they keep it so cold in this basement. My hands feel like a ice box lol