Feeling sick :(

I had such a hard time sleeping the other night. It was sooo bad. my whole body was hurting and was so restless from the pain. This was like cramps through out my whole body. Not just a leg cramp but my whole body feeling like this. Then last night I started feeling really wired and still do. I went into a panic attack. I called my dad to drive me out to the ER. Was there about 6 hours. The doctor thinks I might have Lyme disease. That's caused by a tick bite. But Lyme can attack the heart and brain and nerves and also the joints. So I'm showing all signs of it. And the last time I remember having a tick on me was about a year or so ago. So it's possible. I'm still waiting for the other blood test to come in. I just hope they catch all this in time before it shuts down my heart and or brain or even I can keep paralysis for long term or for life. I know I have it cause I can feel it in my fingers just by typing and in my legs and arms. I just want all this to go away!!!!! I knew something was wrong with me I just didn't know what it was. I'm prying it's nothing that will last forever! That's it for now.. My fingers are hurting to much to even keep typing :( 

New Postd

Ok. So I set my other journals to private and saved all my post to this journal. I had some nosy people that I didn't want reading this. I didn't mind at first until they started going back and telling little things in here to other family members. I mean I don't even really say anything bad in here at all. But I do talk about my relationship with my boyfriend at times and this one certain person was going back and twisting things around. But I have Prof  in here that I do not say anything about anyone that I should not in here. I guess the people that do read this or happen to read everything would be the only ones to know that. And I should not have to let people nose around in it just to prove other wise. :) 

I'm to the point where I could care less what they think or say. Foreal. I am use to it and it don't worry me anymore. I do get bothered at times when they twist things and I have to fight to protect myself but now I'm done with it. If you think I said it rather I did or not then just think it cause I wont tell you yes or no lol DONE WITH IT!

I am almost out of cigs again. Dang! Oh well it's not like I need them but I really want another pack. I wont have anymore money till tomorrow maybe. I been doing a little shopping and I think I have spent close to $200 on just little things that I don't really need or than the ferret food and things I needed for my animals. My ferrets were starting to lose alot of weight and getting sick. And it was bad. I could see their bones. So I went and bought a bag of ferret food for $30 and some ferret tone to add to the other food when I cannot afford the $30 bag of food. Also bought a can of soft caned food with ferret tone in it just to give them a extra boost on some fat. They really need it. And it's working so good. 

It's amazing how ferrets can go down hill so fast but also recover from it so fast. They look like they are feeling alot better. They want out to play again. I cut some boxes and taped alot of them together to make a big running room for them and at the time Gizmo didn't want to play and Vivian spent most of her time just trying to get out. Skittles is the only one who liked it and wanted to play. So until they get better I will start putting them back in the play room I made later on for a hours at a time. 

I still need to get Katies papers somehow. I guess next time I come across $ 5 bucks I will save it and go get her redgitsterd. I need to remember this before court or I'm screwed. I'm not sure if they can take my dog from me or not. She has all her shots and in good health. I would hate to lose her over $5 :( My problem is just remembering to do things. 

I'm starting my plant collection all over again. I lost all my others in between moves and just them dying. I got 2 spider plants and a bamboo plant. I heard the spider plants grow pretty fast and will sprout so I can start re potted them soon enough. They are all still very small though. I just re potted them today so i need to work on buying some more pot for them. It's so healthy to have plants around also. I went and bought another humidifier for the ferrets. So now I have two. When I get my own place again I will work on getting at least 2 for each room. They are pretty cheap to. :) 

The lady I have been helping out for the past 4 days bought me some vitamins the other day. And I never thought the damn things work like people say they do but the ones I'm on are great. They even help with pain to. Leg craps and fights off cancer cells. Allot of other things as well. And most of all gives you energy. If it were not for them I don't think I would have been getting up so early to help this lady move things from house to house. I mean I been moving counters and dressers and allot of heavy things. no back trouble so far lol I know this damn computer chair kills my back though. I got a used computer chair on it's way shorty so I know that will help. Plus I got a UBS keyboard and mouse so now I can just lay back and not worry about my back hurting when I'm on this damn computer for hours at a time. Now I can get rid of my computer chair and foot stand to save on some space. I'm just ramping on.... here's some new photos ! :)

We have 12 animals here and I took some pics of them all. One person just moved out yesterday so that's one down and one cat out lol that would be the white and black cat in the photos. 

Skittles,Gizmo,Vivian

play spot for the ferrets

Missy, Herculies, Lumpy, Katie

The horse

cute face

Herculies don't really like Missy to much but you can't tell here lol

Katie playing with Cali

Herc again

The new dog to the family. her name is missy

Roomates dog Hurculies

My hermit crab

He in there somwhere

Katie and Lalu

My fish Vasquez

Katie and Lumpy 

Katie and Cali 

LaLu   Cali  LIL

LaLu

LIL

Cali

Lumpy and Lil 

Molly

Lumpy the cool cat

Molly

LIL

I kinda miss her being here she was a good cat :)

Random Quotes

If people are talking about you it is either jealousy or them giving someone else a break, hey you must be popular to have them talk about you!!!


Drama this Drama That..Just get over it and grow up!


You don't know me, you don't know my life, and you dang sure don't know what I've been through! So until you do, STAY OUT OF MY BUSINESS!


People keep telling me I'm on Facebook all the time but how would they know unless they were on all the time lol?


has had way too many "What was I thinking?" moments in their life!


Oh, I'm sorry, you were expecting honesty, not sarcasm... Well then... Next time, try not to be such an easy target.


only a real friend will play slow motion ninjas in the hall way with you when no one is looking


OK be honest, have you ever gone to someones house and "fixed" their roll of toilet paper so it is going the right way? (over the top)


Was pulled over yesterday.   Next time when the policeman asks .. "Do you know why I pulled you over?"  I will reply with, "Why did you already forget?"


I have two sides of  me one wants to give you nothing but love and honesty the other honestly wants to run you down with the car and throw you off a bridge


I might be crazy, but you're stupid...and medicine doesn't fix that!


Ooh ee ooh ah ah ting tang walla walla bing bang. Ooh ee ooh ah ah ting tang wala wala bing baa ang!! Try getting that one outta your head!!


they say that in order to succeed in life, u have 2 climb the mountain. personally, im lookin 4 the elevator!


hopes someone out there is accomplishing something today, because motivation abandoned me hours ago.


have a friend and keep them such, never let them know too much, for if that friend becomes a foe, all your secrets the world will know!


Don't waste your time talking to my face, when you've used all you're energy talking behind my back!


A Friend will pick you up from the floor if your drunk, BUT.. A Best friend will clear a path through the crowd yelling "they's drunk MOVE!"


doesn't have an attitude problem, I have personality!!


you know your insane when you read through the insane section of status shuffle and start saying yup been there done that


Why is it that people from your past refuse to allow you to be the person you've become and instead are only willing to see you for who you used to be?


is wondering how some people survive with having only the brain capacity of a rock.


How do gay gangsters do a drive by? They drive in a pink car, throw skittles and yell "that's right bitches taste the rainbow!"


Always remember... if you are ever chased by a bear, you don't need to be the fastest person to get away, you just need to be faster than the slowest person!


Never hold your farts in! They travel up your spine & into your brain! Then you end up with crappy thoughts! And have bad brain farts!


The world is filled with people who want to stand in your way or alter your path or just be be a complete annoyance for lack of better amusement ...


is Living la Vida Broke-A


I'd rather shovel shit with a teaspoon than deal with drama!


When people tell me to "Go To Hell" I just smile and say,"I Cant The Devil Still Has That Restraining Order On Me!"


You can't move forward if you keep looking in your rear view mirror!


tthhee pposstt officce ssentt yyur vvibrraatorr 2 mmyy hhouse bbyy misstaake .  howw dooo uu turrnn thhiss tthhinnng offfff??


*WARNING* When you see me smile I'm just plotting on how i should kill you. And where i should hide your BIG @$$ body. "JUST SAYING"


I am somewhere between lost and found...


You know you are going crazy when you catch yourself saying 'oops sorry' to the pop bottle u just kicked over!!


loves to give false and misleading information to gossipers... it messes them up and makes them look ridiculously stupid! hahaha


Instead of being born, some people should have been swallowed or spit out!


If you don't want the truth, don't ask me. If you want something sugarcoated, go eat a donut.


Holy crap! Did you just feel that? I think the whole world just revolved around YOU!


suffers from chronic I could care less syndrome...


finds your problem absolutely fascinating , and is sure that the nice people at wepretend2care.com will feel the same way ...


sometimes the hardest thing to believe is the truth.

Of course I'm out of my mind...and I'm never going back.


Envy is a waste of time


It is not love that is blind, but jealousy


The jealous are troublesome to others, but a torment to themselves.  ~William Penn, Some Fruits of Solitude, 1693