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I never thought I would be back at this again. I guess the people that do read this prolly already figured out that I change from one thing to another and can't make up my mind. I don't have much followers anymore because I have done changed my journal over so many times. I guess that's kind of a good thing though. Anyway.. I gave in and went to see Miguel in jail the other day. From what I heard he might be getting out of jail here soon. This is all so familiar ... I went through this with my ex about 2 years ago or so but I was not with him at the time he got him self locked up for a DUI. He was in there for so much longer though. About a year. But anyway. If Miguel dose get out I'm gonna go ahead and move back in with him. But not right away. I'm gonna give it some time but not to much cause I want to get out of here and away from the family again. I got away from the other side of the family but here I am stuck again and living with my mother this time. When I think about it, it is so much better to be on my own even with the boyfriend problems. I mean theres problems everywhere I go so why not just have them on my own with one person instead of the whole family down my back. I been doing alot of thinking and I was not blessed with a good family what so ever and I know that's why I am who I am now. And I still don't know who that is.. hmm... All the memories and photos and the fake smiles in the photos is all just a joke! And it really don't even hurt my feelings anymore. I think I got over that years ago. And that's a good thing. All I want now is to get away from them all! Yes I am grateful for what they have done for me because over all they have helped me out alot. Then they throw it back in my face and blah blah and so on.. I don't want the help anymore just need to get out that's it....

I'm done blogging for the day. :)